One Foot in Front of the Other

Today has provided me with probably the widest range of emotions that one could possibly have. Extreme highs and unfortuneately some lows. First the good stuff. Today was our much anticipated SDA appointment. The magic day on the calendar that all families wait word on that the process officially starts in country. We met with our coordinator early this morning to get briefed on the happenings of the appointment and headed out to the meeting. A short five minute drive later we arrived at our destination and there it was...the office that gets it all started. I felt kind of numb as we entered and waited to be called into the office. No real highs or no real lows. I really didn't know what to expect but knew deep down inside that this was the start of something special. 20 minutes later we were done. We were promptly brought back to our apt and are currently waiting for our next set of instructions. This is were the emotions come into play. On one hand, the process is very simple to explain. But on the other it is quite complex. The easiest way to describe it is that you cannot take one step forward until your other foot allows you. This is a rather odd feeling. You must release 100% control and trust that God will lead you and your team in the right direction. After we returned from our meeting, I experienced a range of emotions and feelings that I have never felt. Some rather strange. Some downright scary. Some of jubilation. Some uneasiness. A great deal of anxiety. A sense of relief. An outpouring of such proportion in such a short period of time that it was quite an exhausting time. In a matter of minutes, my head was leading me from one end of the spectrum to the other, at a mind numbing pace. Over the past several months we have talked with other families about their journey and we "knew" what to expect. This outpouring of emotion was explained to us and we prepared ourselves the best we could for the experience. But you can truly never understand until you have experienced it yourself. It is an emotional journey that will change your life. Fortuneately, I have the love of my life with me to share this with. LA has comforted me. Encouraged me. Let me know that I will be okay and that we will be okay. I thought that after all we had been through to this point in our time together that you couldn't get any closer or share anything stronger than what we had experienced. I was completely wrong. Tomorrow will surely bring a new set of emotions. Hopefully I will learn from today and will draw on today's experience to help me travel this path. Today was the official start and we must now put one foot in front of the other...take one step at a time...put our faith in God...put our faith in the team that we are being guided...draw on the love and support that we know is being shared with us from home... One foot in front of the other. One step at a time. Seems like such a simple process. I pray tonight that God gives me the strength to take these steps; help me through the emotional journey; and continue to change my life for the better every step of the way.